Alright...I've just typed an extra long post, but after I clicked the 'publish' button, IE said, 'Page not found'.

I'm too tired to retype. Maybe tomorrow.

Alright. That's it. I'm tired of this cough. Tomorrow after ILC class, I'm going to see the doctor.

I really really can't stand the itch in my throat that's causing this cough. It's basically tickling the base of my lungs and making me choke on the air I'm breathing.

Since young, I hated doctors. I mean, who likes the idea of seeing doctors anyway? It means that something is wrong, isn't it? And I only remember seeing 4 doctors in my whole 18 years. The 'trusted' ones whose medication I know will work on me. Maybe its psychological, but till now, I'm having trouble trusting other doctors other than the ones I always see. I would know exactly what medication I'm getting. I'm used to seeing the same kind of medication, so, anything else would make me wary.

And since young, 'normal' medication won't work on me. I always needed higher dosages. Those extra 'kao' type. I have trouble settling for anything less. Like for cough, the normal cough syrup doesn't work. I would get these tiny green tablets instead. And I seriously don't remember the last time I got a cough. I really don't. It's been years.

<sigh...> But now, away from home ma...sometimes, just got to give in. Very hot and tired. I think I'm keeping my roommate awake by coughing the whole night. <paiseh...>

I WILL SEE THE DOCTOR LATER. I have to remember this...

OK...so...tabulating data is not as easy as I thought it would be...
I've been giving out surveys, asking people about addiction, for Psych 1's research paper. Now that the surveys are back, it's time for some deciphering...which is not easy considering that my survey form is less than perfect. I DID realise that having a lousy survey form would lead to loopholes in the results and not getting the answers I want. But, well...it's the first time doing this, so I have to try it out to see what works...

Turns out that I'm confusing myself with the results. There are some overlapping info, and some of the questions were misunderstood and some were just plain lousy answers....like this: 

Question = Why? (with regards to the question above it)

Answer = "Cos cos lor..."

<720 degree eye roll>

24 THINGS TO ALWAYS REMEMBER..
AND 1 THING TO NEVER FORGET..

1. your presence is a present to the world.
2. You're unique and one of a kind.
3. Your life can be what you want it to be.
4. Take the days just one at a time.
5. Count your blessings, not your troubles.
6. You'll make it through whatever comes along.
7. Within you are so many answers.
8. Understand, have courage, be strong.
9. Don't put limits on yourself.
10. So many dreams are waiting to be realized.
11. Decisions are too important to leave to chance.
12. Reach for your peak, your goal, and your prize.
13. Nothing wastes more energy than worrying.
14. The longer one carries a problem, the heavier it gets.
15. Don't take things too seriously.
16. Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets.
17. Remember that a little love goes a long way.
18. Remember that a lot . . . goes forever.
19. Remember that friendship is a wise investment.
20. Life's treasures are people . . . together.
21. Realize that it's never too late.
22. Do ordinary things in an extraordinary way.
23. Have heath and hope and happiness.
24. Take the time to wish upon a star.
And don't ever forget . . .
For even a day . . .
How very special you are!!

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Being sick is terrible. Especially when it has been going on for over a week. Just by coughing over the phone, I've got my mum worried. <sigh...>

But it's OK. =) It's not possible to remain healthy all the while, would it? Just need to get through it, that's all~.

I was browsing through my pics to load on Friendster...and I realised that...in like, 99% of my pics, my eyes disappear when I smile. Those pics with me wearing specs are not that bad...coz the specs frame my eyes, but those with contacts on...haha! Really narrow slits...

Anyway, pics are very memorable, aren't they? Makes me realise how fast things change...but then again, it's not that fast after all...years have passed. So, here's a glance into the past.

SEA Games 2001: We were playcard holders for Taekwondo. This pic was taken with the Vietnam exponent and coach. Wow...I'm having trouble remembering I was actually there at the SEA Games...we performed during the opening ceremony at Johor's Dataran as well.
                                  

Black belts of 2003: See what 4 times of Taekwondo training a week can do to me? My face was so narrow! =P Yeap...imagine training for 5 hours straight every Sunday, and 2 hours each on Wednesdays, Fridays, and Saturdays. Fuh...how on earth did I manage to do that??
                             

My first (and last) sparring tounament 2002: The ONLY year that they gave out certificates to winners instead of medals... I got bronze. So, I trained hard for the next tournament the following year, but ended up not going coz it was too near my SPM trials, because my mum...well~ you know...
                             

Forum Perdana 2002: Haha! I don't believe I went through this! Basically, we had to make believe that we are having an impromptu discussion about 'serious' issues (ours was about the teaching of English and Maths in English...seems so insignificant now) with the added appropriate facial and body expressions. It was an interesting experience. Each team had to have a non-Bumi speaker in it. After our turn, people started coming up to me to comfirm if I was Malay or Chinese...hey~ I can't help it if I'm dark and speak like a Malay ma...

I woke up blue.

After getting a broken heart, I went out to celebrate a friend's birthday. And coughed the night through. Terrible...maybe somewhere somehow, I swallowed a whole bunch of feathers or something. Throat is sooooooo....... itchy. Even breathing air into the throat makes me cough. Extremely irritating.

I had Psych 1 midterm this morning. Kinda easy...but a little tricky, coz lecturers notes clashed with the textbook. Class was quite interesting. We were studying consciousness, and I had taken medication this morning which caused drowsiness. And we studied how medication alters our state of consciousness so I was able to relate directly to it...if I was conscious enough to realise it, that it...haha...was a little unfocused. Sleepy.

In the afternoon, there was black. Everything just seem to get on my nerves today. I realised that I had to put a lot of effort to just smile at people. Tiring, of course. I lost my patience a little in a meeting. Luckily I was coughing so bad that I missed out a lot of things I wanted to say. Things would have been much worse if I did say them out.   

This evening, there's a performance by the Footstool Players at college. The Christian Fellowship has been promoting it. I wanted so much to go and see. The story line is interesting...about a bride with amnesia and forgets her lover...or something like that. But can't stand it already la...I'm very ready to flop down on my bed after this...wake up tomorrow morning.

<sigh...> my poor heart...

Sometimes I really dislike pasar malam although I go there every week. You see, the things that I want to buy is at the other far end of the street. I need vege and fruits every week. Both stalls are far. So, even though I only want to buy those two items, I still have to walk the whole length of the pasar malam to get there...which can be annoying at times...like today, because it's raining. I can't say that 'Oh...since it's raining, I'll just go and get vege and fruits and come back.' Well...that IS what I tell myself, but no big difference~ Still have to go all the way.

Then, on the way, there are so much more other distractions. Food, clothes, food, drinks, food, cakes, food...and more food. Can't eat them all. Can't buy them all. I admit I do have to restrain myself from impulse buying sometimes. But just imagining it would sometimes make me drool...

Taiwan sausage...chicken fried with 'lam lui'...delicious looking dark chocolate cake...egg tarts...pasteries...curry laksa...nasi kuning...fried yam cake...Malay (chinese-made) kuih...snacks...biscuits...bak zhang...oooooooo.......I can go on and on...

Then, after I finally reach the two stalls at the end, I'll have to resist the temptation to buy more so that I won't run out of stuff during the weekends. Also have to pick those that will last longer, or I'll just end up throwing them away next week.

The walk back is the most 'dangerous'. On the way back is when I'll buy things. If everything looks nice, I'm in trouble...haha...one very effective way of diverting my attention is to think of the amount of fat and carb in whatever that I'm thinking of buying. Works every time. No fail. But not healthy. I don't think its good to do that. I don't want to train myself to think of calories when there's food. Maybe a little to remind me to keep healthy, but not all the time.

Anyway, I might sound lame, but this pasar malam walk reminds me every week of something useful in life:

Things that I want are not easily obtained; and in the journey of getting it, there will be lots of distractions before I can reach it.

I had fun at college today. Well...not fun as in crazy party fun, but because hm...I just felt better than the past few days...why ah? Finally got some things done? Got some projects approved and moving? Had company to talk to? Don't know la...whatever it is, I'm just glad it happened.

Tomorrow, there will be a blood donation campaign at college. I'll be there. =) Er...wonder if the same thing that happened to me the last time would happen again.......hope not.... 

I was coughing the whole morning. Somewhere in the middle of the night, this clump of phlegm appeared and lodged itself between my nose and throat. Yuck. So, when I came back, this brilliant idea of drinking lime and honey struck my mind. Well, not THAT brilliant..my mum has been telling me to drink it for my throat since last week, and even made my sis buy lime and bring it all the way over (Thanks ya...love u ~muaks!~) Then, I took out my biggest cup, painstakingly squeezed the juice of 5 limes into it, added 5 teaspoons of Cameron Highland honey, and...discovered that there was not a single drop of water in the house. Smart huh? Biologically, boiled water is like...the most most most essential thing in the whole wide world for living and my house doesn't have a drop of it. I left the house at 8.50am and came back at 7.30pm. For 10 hours and 40 minutes, 6 people in the house lived without drinking plain water. Yaya...you might say that maybe someone took the last drop of water 5 seconds before I wanted to take it, but hello?? you drain the last drop before you start boiling? Normally, before I come back from college, I'd fill up my bottle so, I rarely take water from home. THe one time I absent-mindedly leave my bottle at college...there's no water.

Anyway, that's not the point. So, I stood there staring at my lime juice + honey mixture and...how?? Put a chunk of ice in it and wait for it to melt? I rather walk down to Esso and buy a bottle of water. Can't boil water to pour in either...the Vitamin C will shrivel and die on the spot. Then I remembered my bottle of Pepsi I bought last week to drink with salt (Dad's recommendation for heatiness) and...poured the Pepsi into the lime juice la...what else? =P

I've created my very own Pepsi Twist. Cool.

Then I start wondering about calories...probably put back on the 233 I lost at the gym just now.

God sets the time for sorrow and the time for joy,

the time for mourning and the time for dancing...

God sets the time for finding and the time for losing,

the time for saving and the time for throwing away,

the time for tearing and the time for mending,

the time for silence and the time for talk

God sets the time for love and the time for hate,

the time for war and the time for peace.

God has set the right time for everything.